Feeling blah......

That's how I feel...blah. This day hasn't started like I wish it would have. As I wrote before my husband was trying to get on with the state well to say the least he didn't get offered that job. It is really upsetting and makes me even more worried about the future. This is because this month our insurance ends from the Army and I will no longer have any. I am in great deal of medical insurance because....here's the other blow. I had a CT scan done last friday do to frequent headaches, well they found a 1cm tumor on my right side of my brain. So yeah I'm nervous about that outcome. All I can do is pray that God has a better plan and that he will show it to us. My husband has had so much weight on his shoulders about this job. I have been a very understanding wife and I am not upset with him at all. I know he did his best. I just think I am loosing my faith, which scares me the most.........